Wednesday, March 05, 2008!
Just don't know what got into me.She doesn't talk to us anymore,not as often as last time.She is like the very first friend I made in the school.When I first saw her,I knew she's going to be one of my best friends, its just the feeling. We were like very good friends at the start of the school term,went recess together,macdonalds together once or twice,took taxi together...Just can't believe it ended so soon,just when I told my mother I gave up the idea of transferring school by end of the year. But the idea hit me again,in fact I may be transferring during mid year.I seriously don't understand why she treated us like that,we didn't do anything wrong.I don't blame her though...I still treat her as one of my good friend though she don't treat me as one now.I remember THAT day,we were still on good terms,she's still my best friend,we still went recess together,with them,as SHE(another) didn't come. I guess she was pissed off cos SHE didn't tell her she wasn't coming on the next day. So...she went with them and I followed her.We sat down at the table and ate our food..She was talking to them and I don't know what to talk about so I remained quiet.
I didn't come the next day,and I regretted it.I really didn't know so many things could happen in just one day.She still talked to me,a bit,but have a weird attitude towards me,like sort of hinting something to me.As SHE was back in school,I didn’t drag her into going recess with them as _____________. So...as each day passed,our friendship drifted apart,we didn't talk at all. She didn't even say hi to me in the morning which she used to,she stopped going recess with me,she stopped going macdonalds with me,we stopped walking home together.And so that day,she officially 'joined their group'. I was super depressed for like lots of days, and finally decided that I will transfer school.(yeah,and I went recess with twins and her from that day onwards too.)
Then one fine day,I decided I couldn't take it anymore, I took up courage and SMSed her. She claims that we are still her friends, but it really doesn't seem like it. From that day onwards,she only said one thing to me,a very sad thing (to me?). "Joey,later history you change place with _____."
After that day I SMSed her, she started talking to me,awhile,for a week only.
AND......it faded again.
Well, I just want to tell you I'm sorry if you think I'm wrong.Even if you think I'm not wrong,I'm still sorry.
All I know is,our friendship won't be the same as the past,forever.
SO.......conclusion.
I AM TRANFERRING SCHOOL AT THE END OF THE YEAR.
bit emo today.
10:15 PM